Chapel by the Sea

“The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all
its contents... some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such
terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad
from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new Dark Age.”
― H.P. Lovecraft
 
I am writing this journal not so much as for publication but for catharsis, if indeed that is even
possible at this point. Some small part of me still believes in the great power of the logical
and rational mind to both reveal truth and overcome suffering. It is but a small part now, but I
think it yet remains. Some might say I am ideally placed to put my confidence in human
rationality. I am, after all, a scientist of prestigious reputation, having published many papers
in the fields of both mathematics and ecology. My greatest work, or so I have been told, has
applied advanced theories of highly unusual spatial mathematics to ecological networks, and
has been published in Nature. Indeed even as I write these words I am aware of my
nomination for a position in the Royal Society. A young lady, a brilliant and energetic young
mind, writes to me and tells me the applications of these models could revolutionise the
networks used in artificial intelligence… 
 
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CONTENT WARNING: Body horror, explicit sexual scenes, threat, death, drug use